Portobello Mushroom & Heirloom Tomato Lettuce Wrap

Gluten & Dairy Free

This week I went on a sporadic portobello mushroom kick. What a fantastic fungus.. so meaty and full of texture. Mushrooms are known for their cooling nature, reduces heat toxins and helps to bolster immunity. To celebrate the end of summer, I also wanted to get the most I could out of heirloom tomatoes, which are my favorite tomato. Heirlooms not only come in beautiful colors, shapes and sizes, they are packed with bursting juiciness. Tomatoes are also very cooling and helps to relieve dryness and thirst.

Here’s a really simple mid-day snack, side dish or light lunch for when you need to cool off on a hot late summer day.  I opted out on using a bunch of different seasonings because I wanted to let the pure flavor of the mushrooms and tomatoes shine through.


portobello mushrooms
heirloom cherry tomatoes
white onion
romaine lettuce hearts
olive oil
salt & pepper
optional topping:  shredded goat cheese or aioli

Heat olive oil in pan.
Saute chopped white onions and chopped portobello mushrooms for approximately 5 minutes, tossing frequently.
Place mushroom, onions and olive oil on romaine lettuce hearts.
Top with chopped heirloom cherry tomatoes.
Add salt and pepper to taste.
Dig in for a cool, refreshing bite!  :)

Once an Addict Always an Addict?

A revised version of this article has been published on Psych Central.

The Sun Always Sets

Once an addict, always an addict?  This is a saying I’ve always grappled with.  One part of me is against any type of labeling, let alone a heavy label to be carried for the rest of your life. We are all so interchangeably dynamic, that to categorize someone into a box forever doesn’t sit well.  It’s like trying to describe a piece of music: sometimes it doesn’t fit into a particular genre and maybe what’s more important is the expression of how it sounds in a particular moment.

Another part of me completely agrees with this statement and perceives it to be utterly valid.  Instead of denying who you are, true acceptance perhaps is the only way to not only recover, but to continue to maintain your recovery.  However much I am against “branding” someone for life, it is human nature to create categorizes in order to piece things together and make sense of circumstances.

Three recent events have inspired me to write this article.

  • Robin Williams’ recent suicide after battling addiction for over 30 years.
  • Coming home to find that my father had picked up smoking cigarettes again after “quitting” for 15 years.
  • Witnessing a co-worker undergo major drug withdrawals during a shift at work.

As a “former” addict, I’ve had to come to terms with my own fate. At age 14, I started smoking marijuana, age 15, drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes, age 17, I started attending raves and got introduced to an entire world of hard drugs, namely ecstasy, cocaine, methamphetamine, magic mushrooms, and pharmaceutical drugs (adderall, ritalin, morphine, methadone and oxycontin).  Am I proud to of all this? No.  Am I ashamed? Kind of.  Am I okay with where I’m at now? Yes.

Although I’ve been “off” hard drugs and cigarettes since 2008, my addiction appears in other aspects of my life. I still drink alcohol in moderation and battle with how I feel about marijuana, especially now that it’s legal in my state and is “all natural” (this is a whole separate article).  I have no future plans to smoke weed again, unless I maybe end up in the forest somewhere with the right people.

After coming clean from drugs, I turned into a health nut and avid spiritual seeker.  My addiction transferred into the realm of health and I became addicted to being overly fit, doing yoga, running, going on juice fasts, and I became very particular of what foods I put into my body.  This is all good to a certain degree, but was taken a bit over-the-top (a typical pattern of an addict).  I also became obsessed with new age studies, “positive thinking,” and meditation.  I dabbled in Buddhism and attended epic retreats.  I joined a Hindu group for 8 months.  I studied Taoist philosophies, was enraptured by the concept of “zen,” and was fascinated with various forms of mysticism and becoming “one” with the trees and Universe.  I also became an acupuncture junkie and workaholic.

Fast forward to 2013.. I somehow became a Christian.  I’m hoping to not be a Jesus freak now, since this seems to be the new “high” that I’m on.  Maybe this time, it’s real.  However, why do I still feel confused?  Now that I’ve been “saved,” shouldn’t I feel “complete?”  My church friends would say I’m not praying enough.  However, in a recent sermon I heard, I was pretty much appalled at what was coming out of the pastor’s mouth.  He presented a whole plethora of statistics between Christians and non-Christians.  I just can’t come to terms with a narrow “us” versus “them” mentality.  I think Jesus, or God, or whoever, crosses way bigger boundaries beyond what we can even comprehend.  There are no boundaries, yet in relationships there has to be.  Hence, the constant devil versus angel act.  Will life always be a teeter-totter? You’re either in or out?  Making a good or bad choice?  Falling into temptation or overcoming?  An addict or not an addict?  To say you’re never going to drink, smoke, or make a not-so-good decision ever again is a lot of pressure to carry and can create a path towards relapse.

In many situations, I appreciate the Eastern philosophies of balance and the “middle way,” but for some addicts, this is completely impossible.  I think it is vital for addicts to surround ourselves with people that are supportive of our recovery and ongoing maintenance.  If you don’t change your car’s oil and give it a tune-up on a regular basis, it will break down.  The same is true for recovery.. it’s a lifelong process.  It is also wise to not place ourselves in situations where an opportunity to use is freely presented.  Does that mean we have to lock ourselves away forever?  No.  But maybe instead of meeting friends at a bar, a tea shop would be more appropriate.  When I finally decided to change my life, I deleted all the phone numbers of people I knew could give me access to drugs.  I also recently decided that I don’t want to go into a bar alone anymore.  Do I want to be that lone girl sitting on a bar stool? Sounds like a great song lyric, but it’s not the woman I aspire to be.

All I know is that I wake up every morning thankful to be alive. I have no idea what lies ahead, but have faith that I’ll be able to endure whatever is thrown my way.  Making decisions, even small daily ones, can be stressful.  I’ve realized that it’s not up to me and there is a way bigger thing happening beyond my control that can’t be fathomed.  Even if the “right” thing is staring at me in the face, and I do the “wrong” thing, make poor choices, and end up repeating bad habits or patterns, I trust that I’ll be able to get out of it because I’ve accepted my fate.  I’ll always be an addict, I will never live up to any standards, I’ll continue to make mistakes and will never be perfect.  Once this weight is lifted, it becomes a lot easier to keep walking everyday.

by Kristin Bach
Copyright 2014

Combating Stress and an Army of Ants

Cinnamon Ants

For some reason every time I’m at a peak point of feeling somewhat stressed, I always seem to encounter an army of ants or insects.  This morning, I woke up and wanted banana pancakes and coffee for breakfast. When I went to the kitchen, I was greeted by an army of ants trying to take over.  Apparently the ant traps tucked away in private corners of my house aren’t quite working.  I thus removed everything from the counters and engaged in a vinegar spray battle trying to kill as many as I could see on site.  I placed a little container of sugar and cinnamon in a corner, as well as sprinkled a line of cinnamon on their trail.  The trail was clearly visible and I could see exactly where they came from (a tiny hole in the wall of my dining room).

A few things from this scenario stuck out at me.  First of all, when I woke up this morning, I was already stressed out.  Why? The realization hit that I will be starting graduate school in exactly one month.  Am I ready for this?  Is this the right decision?  How am I going to afford it?  A million questions were racing in my mind.  Second of all, I was out of coffee (probably something I shouldn’t be drinking everyday anyway, nonetheless when anxious).  Third of all, there is an entire army of ants invading my space when all I wanted was a nice, clean area to make a few fluffy pancakes.

After I calmed down, stole some coffee from my roommate and addressed the ant invasion scenario, I finally had space to do what I originally wanted (make pancakes).  What’s significant about all this is not that I finally got what I wanted in the end, but why did I let myself get so upset in the first place? Often times, situations happen in our lives that we have no control over.  We thus have to problem solve and address what is being presented to us.  Also, waking up with anxiety about what is going or not going to happen a month from now is kind of ridiculous.  I should have woken up over-joyed to be alive and that a sunshine-filled day awaits.  However, the reality is you can’t always feel sunny and sometimes it’s hard to be thankful for the present moment, when a self-created “to-do” list has piled up in your head.  Everything happens in due time and is something I have to constantly remind myself of.

Yesterday, I went kayaking.  It was so much fun and something I hadn’t done in a while.  The sun was blazing, the water was glistening and I was in good company.  As we were out there in the water, we had to decide where to go, when to paddle and when to coast.  The simplicity of spending a nice summer day in the water is actually synonymous to everyday decisions (aka what should I have for breakfast?), as well as bigger life choices (should I spend thousands of dollars of money I don’t have and plunge myself into debt in order to go back to school hoping I’ll be further skilled to serve and that there will be an investment at the end?)  When do you paddle as hard as you can in order to avoid a big ship coming your way and when do you chill out and wade in the water?  In church, we learn that everything has already been taken care of in the name of Jesus, and all we have to do is relax into His arms, into His grace.  That sounds all gravy.. but is that really real life?  Jesus may have opened some doors for me, but I still need to decide whether to walk through them.  Should I be praying for $50,000 of tuition money to magically land in my lap?  Isn’t that selfish?  I have a roof over my head, food on the table, a loving family, friends and a job.  Do I really need more?  No.  Do I want more?  Yes.  And is wanting more okay?  I think so.

Instead of twirling in my head about whether I’m “prepared” to take a plunge, whether I have the practical means to turn ideas into reality, and being a slave to my own self-imposed worries, maybe it’s time to take a deep breath, sprinkle some cinnamon on my troubles, and just wade in the water…

by Kristin Bach
Copyright 2014

How to make Cucumber Kimchi

Gluten & Dairy Free

Kimchi was a staple in my household growing up and though there are a bunch of different kinds, cucumber kimchi is one of my top favorites. Here’s a simple recipe… perfect and refreshing for a hot summer day!


english cucumber or small pickling cucumbers
green onion (chopped)
gochugaru (Korean red pepper)
minced garlic
rice vinegar
white sugar
sea salt


  • Cut off the ends of the cucumber, slice lengthwise into two halves, and cut into wedges (or moon-shapes).
  • Place in bowl and sprinkle approximately 2 tablespoons of sea salt.  Toss together.
  • Let sit overnight or for at least 4 hours.  This causes water to be drawn out of the cucumbers.
  • Add minced garlic, chopped green onions, and approximately 2 tablespoons of gochugaru (can add less or more depending on how spicy you want it).
  • Add approximately 1 teaspoon of rice vinegar and a sprinkle of white sugar.  Toss together with gloved hands. Can add more salt, sugar or gochugaru to taste.
  • Let cool in refrigerator for a few hours.
  • Serve cold with steamed rice and kim (roasted seaweed) or as banchan (Korean side dish) with your main entree.  Very crisp and refreshing on a hot summer day!

How to make Kong-namul (Soybean sprout)

Gluten & Dairy Free

Kongnamul (pronounced “koong-nah-mool”) is a traditional Korean side dish (banchan) that is typically served alongside your main entree.  It is simple to make and adds a nice, refreshing crisp to your palette.


One package of soybean sprouts (available at your local Asian market or local grocer’s produce section).
green onion (chopped)
garlic (minced)
tamari (gluten free soy sauce)
sesame oil
sesame seeds
gochugaru (Korean chili powder)


  • Bring a large pot of water to a boil.
  • Add soybean sprouts and one tbsp of salt to the water. Reduce heat, continue boiling and stir for approximately 3-5 minutes (you want the sprouts to soften a bit, yet still remain firm, not mushy).
  • Remove sprouts from heat, place in colander and rinse thoroughly or plunge in cold water (this technique is also known as blanching).
  • In a separate bowl, add approximately 2 tbsp of sesame oil, 1 tbsp of tamari, 1 tbsp of minced garlic, 2 stalks of chopped green onion, and a pinch of gochugaru (this is not a spicy dish, you just want a tiny hint of speckled red).
  • Add the bean sprouts and stir together by hand.  Add salt to taste.
  • Finally add a sprinkle of sesame seeds for extra flavor and texture.
  • Serve immediately or store in fridge to be eaten at a later time with your main course.  :)

Spicy Beef w/ Kimchi & Roasted Seaweed

Gluten & Dairy Free

Here’s a really simple Korean-inspired recipe packed with spiciness, protein and pro-biotics. To turn this into a truly Korean dish, I would have used gochujang (traditional Korean red pepper paste). However, sriracha does the trick in this case and adds a small touch of sweet to balance out the spice and salt of the kimchi and seaweed.


beef tenderloin
onion (white)
garlic (minced)
tamari (or soy sauce)
olive oil
sesame oil
black pepper
saeng-che (radish kimchi)
roasted seaweed (available at local Asian market or Trader Joe’s)
brown (or white) rice


  1. Slice beef into thin slices.
  2. Mince garlic and chop white onions.
  3. In stove-top pan, heat olive oil on medium heat. Add garlic and chopped onions. Simmer for 2 minutes.
  4. Add sriracha (add less or more depending on desired spice level).
  5. Add tamari (add more or less depending on desired salt level).
  6. Stir everything together (this is your flavor base).
  7. Add beef. Continue stirring and simmering on medium heat for 3-5 minutes.  Do not overcook, otherwise your beef will be dry.  You want a moist, tender consistency (a little pink is okay).
  8. Add a drizzle of sesame oil and black pepper.
  9. Serve hot with side of brown rice, kimchi and roasted seaweed!


Top 5 Songs of the Week (theme: resurrection, hope & prayer)

I’m trying something new and venturing into the blogging world of posting music videos. Here are my top 5 songs of the week. They all carry underlying themes of resurrection, hope and prayer.

First Aid Kit – Silver Lining
One of my favorite female duos. This is from their latest album.

The Band – Atlantic City
An oldie but a goodie.

Billie Joe & Norah Jones – Oh So Many Years
I love Norah Jones and the fact that she paired with the guy from Green Day to do a country/americana album is pretty rad. These are renditions of classics from the Everly Brothers.

The Secret Sisters – River Jordan
Another great female duo whose latest album just got released.

Shovels & Rope – Birmingham
A band I just recently discovered.